Thursday, January 21, 2010
Yesterday Will came home from school in a foul mood. When something is bothering him he feels it with his whole being. Life is so hard, school is awful, everything is just so horrible. The world crashes down on him and he has to drag himself through finishing responsibilities and commitments. Yesterday was one of those days. Interestingly enough, when I woke him up for school this morning he said to me, "I'm actually really excited about my presentation today. I had such a great topic this time and I know there will be lots and lots of questions.". The smile on his face and the relaxed way he got out of bed and dressed himself just made me smile. When he's frustrated I feel frustrated. Whatever emotion he has I feel it in my whole body, he has a way about him that just makes you want to hold him and love him. He's the kind of boy that brings you along on his emotional roller coaster.
At breakfast we spoke about the day and he determined that he feels cranky when he has a project due.... light bulb moment ... the realization that for the entire school year he has been stalling and procrastinating when a short term or long term project was underway. Maybe starting to think about the next job after he finished today's job wouldn't be such a bad idea. Every other week he has to write a paper and present a "job" to the class. This week he was an artist and he's know for two weeks that he was an artist. I remind and nudge and when the night before comes he has very little work done on the project. All year this has been the case. This morning he made the connection between his actions and his emotions and I could feel myself cheering inside. I could see that maybe he was beginning to realize that he held the power, he controls what he does and what he does has consequences!
Maybe I'm not so bad at this Mom thing afterall.