Today our family recognizes the birthday of a dear friend. A friend who passed on far to early. We remember Sam "Sammi" Masoudi on what would have been his 13th birthday.
In previous writings I have alluded to the difficulty our family, and my son in particular, has had with the loss of several friends this year. It is the loss of Sam that haunts him the most. This child, this sweet, sweet boy was four years older than my son. He was a mentor, not just in Tae Kwan Do but in so many other ways. I will never ever forget the kindness that Sammi showed my son. The example he set. The confidence he passed on to my child.
I remember the daily wave and his sweet happy smile as he passed our car in the carpool lane. I will never ever forget the day he was with some of his friends and my Will stuck his head out the window saying "Hey Sam!". Sammi turned around with a big grin, and walked right up to the car window and said, "Hi William, see you later at Tae Kwan Do.", he then turned back to his friends and headed down the path. Will grew two inches in that moment and my self conscious and sensitive little boy sat back into his seat with the biggest smile, glowing with pride. I am so grateful to Sam Masoudi for that day.
William misses playing Army Navy Charge with Sammi. He misses talking about Star Wars legos and Star Wars in general. Sam and his sister's deaths were the result of a random and unimaginable freak accident, a shock that completely rocked our world. Will goes in and out and up and down - grief and confusion undefined. He prefers to avoid talking about it until he explodes with anger and sadness. I hold him and talk with him, not always sure I'm saying the right things because I am angry and sad too.
For so long I have thought that there are no words, everyone always says "there are no words", but there are words. Maybe not enough words, but little by little the stories and memories of a life stopped short become words. These are the words I share with you today. Sam was an amazing young man whose touch will forever be imprinted on my son.
Please say a prayer for the family of Sam and Grace Massoudi.